Why??? Why do I always turn out to be the bad guy lately? I keep my distance. I shut my mouth, so that non of my thoughts would spill out and burn someone. I look away, so that I wouldn't have a hurtful opinion about what I see. I put my head down and read. Read, read, and read some more... so that no one would have to see what is in my eyes. I keep an ocean worth of distance from all of you, so that I wouldn't contaminate your beautiful lives. Why? Why is it not enough? Why can't you people just give me an ounce of it back? Why do you have to strip me out of my cover, roll your eyes at my scars, and beat me some more? I want to shut all openings to this beautiful world of yours, get inside, and just be...just be... I need to hear my heartbeat, and only my heartbeat. Is it too much to ask? Haven't I always been there for you? (for ALL of you?). I will be back. I will let you unload all your troubles on me again. I will let you cry on my shoulder again. I will cheer you up again. I will be your rock again. But not now...not now. Let me find "ME" again. I promise when I do, I will bring her back to you. To all of you.....
Has it ever crossed your mind, that maybe "I" miss her too??????