I donno what or who you people call God, or weather or not you even have such a notion in your lives, but i've got a cool God ... with a HUGE sense of humor.
Love him to death and everything, he is a COOOL dude, and has my back all the way and all that, BUT this sense of humor is basically fucking me over !
So here is the story as i see it ...
It was the past new year's eve (the persian one) and i was obviously chatting with him ... I told him to help me out with making a big decision i was struggling with for a couple of months by then, AND i told him that i really liked the kind of new connection we had found during the year that had past and would like to continue on that same route in the following year.
He basically got the message across that he WOULD do that, under certain conditions:
i had to meditate ... stop ignoring him when i don't like what he is saying ... and i could not give up when things seemed bad ... and most importantly, i had to TRUST him
so i said Cool, and we made a deal!
Well the decision making (about that problem i had) went really well soon after that BUT here is how he fucks you over and laughs at your expense (I know it is beneficial, but trust me it could be arranged in a less painful way, but NOOOO cuz then what would he laugh at ??? )
First he goes after your routines ... your whole comfort zone ... and crashes that down ... which is not really that bad
Then, he kinda waits for you to get used to the first joke and then goes after your self control, flexibility, and anger management issues ...
Then, he goes after your PRIDEEEEEEEEEEEE ... and boyyyyy does that hurttttttttttttttt ...
and just when you think he is done ! cuz hey, what els is there ?
he he
he goes after your FEARSSSSSS AND INSECURITIESSSSSSSS ..... AND RIGHT WHEN YOU ARE MOST VULNERABLE .....
damnnnn .... come one dude, its not funnyyyyyyyy (i mean it is, but come oneee)
So yeah ! I PROMISED not to run away when things get messy, and to trust him ...
DUDE, i do trust you, and yeah it is funny so laugh it up, i WILL go with your flow ... lets see what you have planned ...